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San Francisco, CA, United States
Sur mon Ile, j'ai écris une page d histoire, pas d'humanité, ni historique, mais une page de MON histoire. Ne rêvons pas nos vie, vivons nos rêves...

Read Me...Join Me...Meet Me...

~Join Me at My Events~
* Runway of the World, Oct 22, 2010 6:30pm @ Hotel Valencia, San Jose
* Indulgence Lounge Exhibition & Show, Nov 5, 2010 6:00pm @ The Payne Mansion, 1409 Sutter Street, San Francisco
* Green Festival Exhibition, Nov 6-7, 2010 10pm @ San Francisco Convention Center
* Chance Fashion Show, Nov 13, 2010 8pm @ Vela Lounge, Seattle
* Silicon Valley Beauty Contest Chapter I, Apr 2, 2011 6pm @ Temple Lounge, San Jose
* Silicon Valley Beauty Contest Chapter II, May 8, 2011 6pm @ Temple Lounge, San Jose
* Ao Dai Festival, May 15, 2011 5pm @ Dynasty Restaurant
* Silicon Valley Beauty Contest Chapter III, June 4, 2011 6pm @ Temple Lounge, San Jose

Monday, May 23, 2011

Think Patterns, Not People

"Think Patterns, Not People"--When I opened the Table of Contents of <The Social Atom>, this is the first thing I saw, and then I bought the book without any hesitation...This is exactly what I've been thinking, following, and trying to develop for the past 10 years!!!

When I think back, I feel truly thankful to 3 people: my physics teacher in middle school, my maths teacher in high school, and my tutor of Physics Olympic (PhO) competition in high school.  They not only taught me maths and physics, but also taught me the way of logic thinking.  Sometimes I feel regret that I didn't continue my study in physics at that time, but as they said, what I have learned by studying maths and physics is really the way of thinking that can apply to anything I do.  Even if I became a business major when I get into college, I never stopped reading--from natural science, to complex science, to human science...Unlike most of the pure business people, I look at our society, business and people's behavior in a scientific way. 

I'm not a religious person, though sometimes I can be superstitious, I do believe something is controlling this whole world--not limited to the world we are living in and we observe, but the whole universe and anything outside of this universe, if any--that's the underlying order scientists are looking for.  I always thinking everything works the same way, and there's for sure a way to explain everything with scientific theories, the fundamentals.  

While reading <The Social Atom>, when Mark Buchanan was talking about how human individuals make everything so complicated that it is almost impossible to explain human behavior in the scientific way.  But imagine, if we could jump out the universe, to observe the world from some point outside the existing universe, with full information, maybe everything will be much simpler to understand.  However, according to the recent quantum gravity theory, nothing exists outside of the universe, which means we cannot jump out of the universe to observe the whole thing, which means nobody can get complete information, and that is what I think the main reason that caused the uncertainty--incomplete information for everyone, and people all have different assumptions and thinking process based on the information they have, and thus create the complexity of human world.  Though it's not possible to eliminated all the uncertainty to create the risk-free environment all the time, we can always reduce the uncertainty to make the bet has better chance to win--I usually use my "Black Box Theory" to think about the complicated problems, seems it works well so far.  

When I think more about my past, from my childhood to now, I figured one thing--I have changed a lot over all those years, but deeply done, I still do things with the same pattern again and again, that's the real me, the fixed pattern that exists when I was born, which will never change.  I believe everyone has such a pattern that makes their life cycle goes over and over again--different time, different things, different places, different people, everything seems different, but essentially the same pattern.  As I believe, people don't change fundamentally, all changes are incremental.  Though we may not be able to change that pattern, as long as we know about it, there are always ways to make it better use instead of use it against ourselves. 

THINK PATTERNS, NOT PEOPLE!as Mark Buchanan wrote, as I always believed... Just started reading the book actually, I will write more when I finish the book I guess...:)  

Friday, May 13, 2011

Work & Fun - On & Off Stage

This is mostly the shows and events from end of 2010...Different spot, different designer, different style, and different me :)


* Shiny gold dress for fashion show @ Westin St. Francis Hotel, San Francisco, CA, Sept 2011;
Designer: Debbie Nghiem.
I like St. Francis hotel, not because it is a fancy hotel at Union Square, but this is the spot I used to use to practice catwalk when I just started to do fashion shows, when I didn't know how to walk.  Finally got a chance to do a real show here with a crowd! I was so proud!


* Vino Moda wine tasting and fashion awakening event Aug, 2010 @ Fort Mason, San Francisco, CA; 
Designer: Candice Janeen.  
Walk walk, with confidence... 
And videos for Vino Moda events, and my first interview video as a model...:)









* Avant Garde Superchick Fashion Show, Sept 2010 @ Supperclub San Francisco, CA
This look really seems like "avant garde", never had such wild look before...Telling myself, "Yes, I can!"





* TAPpy Hour Sept 2011 @ Zen Lounge, Mountain View, CA; Designer: Monique Zhang
Was just thinking to hang out and enjoy other people's show, but ended up dressed up like them, and walked around the venue as advertisement.  Since I was the only one that still had the designer's cloth on, and per request, I was dancing on the table, I got everybody's attention, felt like a superstar :)


 * "Fool For Love" Movie Premier, Sept 2010 @ Hillview Airport, San Jose, CA
I felt so excited to see so many cool airplanes, can't help to take some shoots with the planes!!
 Getting my hair done, only 3 minutes to get ready, but I really liked my hair that day!
 Interviewing...Feel like a star, before the real star arrives~!
Movie group arrived by plane...Group picture!
 Real stars in front, I became the background statue.  Kept that pose for almost an hour! One day, I will sit in front, and let other people be the statue...^^
Even if I'm not the star (yet), I still got the VIP service with Limo!!! Move to the movie theater from the airport!


 Walking on the red carpet! I AM THE STAR!!! Haha!


 * Friends of HUE Charity Event, Sept 2010 @ San Pedro Theater, San Jose, CA

Behind the scene...Laying on the ground to take pictures, I am the photographer!!~O(∩_∩)O~
~认真的女人最美丽~

 * Noble Wine Launch party, Nov 2010, San Francisco, CA.  
One of my favorite look -- I look so Parisian!!!





* Indulgence Lounge Artist Show -- Intro & Fashion Show by Monique Zhang
That was one of the toughest days--I was not officially in the show, but I participated all the preparation work before the show day, and be a back-stage manager/coordinator + floor model + show model at the same time! Didn't stop running around that night, but it was really fun!!










* Runway of the World, Oct 2010 @ Valencia Hotel, San Jose, CA
Tried some interesting cloths that day...one look like a fairy in the forest, and the other one that shows my boobs.  I guess that's why I caught much attention in that show.  I hesitated a bit when asked to where that, but for experience once, why not?:)
 After the show...See I got all the fans!


Video of the show from Run Way of the World, ENJOY!



The Beauty of Imperfection

"I need to look perfect all the time!" -- I used to think this way.  Whenever I needed to go out, even if just went grocery shopping, I always made sure that I look perfect--maybe not absolutely perfect, but at least it should look perfect to me at that moment.  And I became more so since I got involved in all those fashion events.  We may look shiny on the runway, but we do make funny faces at back stage, thus there are lots of funny pictures taken behind the scene--they are fun to look, but I would never allow them to appear in public websites (as long as I know), and not even show them to close friends.


Most of the world's successful models are pencil thin and for ads in magazines and posters, their faces and bodies are touched up so that they look perfect. Sadly, I'm not one of them, and millions of girls and women measure themselves against these impossible standards and come up short.  


Black Swan makes me think...and I realized that there's no such thing called "perfection", there is only perfection within imperfection. The real beauty will not be affected by a little defects.  Imperfection is beauty, only if we can truly accept the imperfection and appreciate the imperfection, we can then find the true perfection. 


No need to feel shame because we are not perfect.  Be confident--Confidence creates beauty!

Updates & Connections

Once in a while I write blogs...once in a LONG while I guess :)

Glad to see people's messages when I finally logged back on, and even happier to see that they like my random thoughts.

While I was building my portfolio, I trying to link my online profile together in some way.  If you like this blog, welcome to subscribe, and if you want to know me more, you can also find some of my online profiles:


  • Yelp -- Yes, I Yelp!...Actually just started recently ^^.  I love to eat out, discover new restaurants, events and adventures.  Yelp! sounds like a good place find out all of the above.
  • Youtube -- Mostly videos from the fashion shows and events, and some videos of my cute pets (2 turtles--Toto and Lele).  Working on more interview videos and even more...
  • Facebook -- Of course! Who doesn't use it? Add me to see more information, events, pictures, videos...
  • Twitter -- This is brand new for me.  Just thinking, seems all the famous people are using Twitter, so if I use it, maybe one day I will become famous too, haha! -- Such a stupid logic, but please follow me on Twitter @ smileypissenlit

Voilà, a brief update...but I will write more later...soon :)